Best Friend

Best friend(s) is someone who is willing to share the burden with you, listen to your troubles, help you when you are in need, accompany you when you need someone to do so and he or she is the one whom you always have in contact for, besides a BGR relationship. I have once a so-called best friend. We would chat about any topic that we have in mind. Can say we have chatted a wide range of topics. The best thing is that we were willing to share the problems we have in our daily lives everytime we meet up. I treasured that moment because at least there is one more person whom I can openly share my problems (in this world) with besides myself and God. But not any more. We have never been meeting much since he got himself a girlfriend. Things change quite a bit and I am 'alone' again. That's the power of having a relationship. People change. Not all but majority. Sometimes I just wonder whether I would be one of the majority. Guess that this topic is becoming dull as I have been speaking of in many previous updates.
Although I still do have many friends I could share my problem with, I chose not to. Because I admit that I am not as close to them or vice versa. Some times looking on the good side of 'gossiping', it shows me that anyone that participate in it tend to trust one another pretty well and that is why they are willing to tell what they really feel at their bottom of their hearts at times. However, I still strongly disagree of gossiping being practiced although I myself did participate at times. I have since restrained myself from doing so.
I really wish I can have this kind of friend whom I can really trust. Sometimes its not that they can't earn my trust but just that I am unwilling to fully open up myself to them. Looking at the gossips everywhere, it looks like I really can't 'open' myself up to the fullest. Although I claimed to be 'open-minded'... We need to ask ourselves - what is the purpose of gossiping?
However, I do thank God for He has always been the One listening to my troubles whenever, wherever and however. I guess the ones whom I can really trust are the adults in my Church who could fully understand my trouble besides all my friends.

So who is my best friend(s) now? I really can't answer that. But one thing is for sure, every friend I have made is good and I sincerely hope I can further develop this friendship more intimately in time to come.

eugene